Peace Be Still
There are times while lying in bed that the silence blankets my room in the stillness of the night; yet peace is far from me. I lay there desperately wishing for sleep and serenity for I know it is the only way to erase the thoughts and desire for intimacy raging within the depths of my soul.
I wrestle, fight, and consistently ask; what can I do to get this longing to stop haunting me. What will it take to make it go away? The tears begin to flow uncontrollably as the scripture “And the Lord God said, It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him.” (Genesis 2:18 KJV), plays over and over and over again in my head. Yet, as I lay there in the midst of such anguish, I cry out in distress and wonder why God has not answered my most earnest prayer and desire.
I live day after day, week after week, and year after year, spending time with family and friends, working and serving in the church as I observe couples and families constantly interacting and enjoying the festivities and events of life. Therefore, surely it should be expected that I too would desire earthly companionship, and love. It doesn’t make sense. Why would God not have a special someone for me? Has anyone ever been there? Maybe, you’re there right now?
Well my brothers and sisters in Christ, I firmly testify that in the midst of my low moments, God is always faithful!! In the midst of the pain, struggle, tears and loneliness, His soft still voice whispers, “Peace, be still.” (Mark 4:39 KJV) Saints of God, please know and understand that there has never been a time when God has not been powerful enough to speak to the storm that was raging within my spirit. There has never been an instance when His Word has not been strong enough to calm the emotions that seemed too have overpowered me by force. And there has never been a situation too enormous that the blood He shed on Calvary could not heal. Therefore, there is no emotional storm within you that is too powerful for Him to control.
How great is our God!!!! It’s amazing to witness true love. It’s an incredible feeling to experience how love truly comforts and protects. You see it doesn’t matter how many times I need Him or how often I need Him, He’s always there. He doesn’t get aggravated or irritated when I’m emotional or needy. He doesn’t get impatient with me about the fact that He has told me and shown me many times that “….I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee” (Hebrews 13:5 KJV).
In my moments of insecurity, I never feel as though I have to fight against His busy schedule nor do I feel as though I have to fight for His attention or understanding. He calmly steps in and embraces me with the sole purpose to fulfill the need in which I lack at that particular moment. There is no hesitation, no frustration, no aggravation, and no remorse. He whispers in my spirit that He is always there because He loves me.
It is in these moments that I begin to reflect and meditate on His Word. It is in these moments that I learn and understand that His Word teaches “no good thing will He withhold from them that walk uprightly.”(Psalm 84:11 KJV) Therefore, it is in these moments that I clearly see that as a born again believer who chooses to live according to His Word, that I must trust and believe His Word. Consequently, I take comfort in knowing that because He loves me, He has me safe in His arms.
It is in these moments, I realize what love is as well as what love is not. You see love is not selfish, competitive or impatient. Love is not inconsiderate, physically abusive, verbally abusive or arrogant. Love is not about self fulfillment. Love is an act of total and complete surrender for the sole purpose of fulfilling the need of another.
It is in these moments that I realize because of the love that my Heavenly Father has for me He will not release me into the arms of just any man, but when He chooses will carefully place me in the arms of the MAN who will know how to love me.
So children of God, when the “storms” begin to rage uncontrollably within your spirit, stop, pray and listen for a soft still voice saying, “Peace, be still,” and patiently rest in His love and wait for His timing!!